Calamity

To call me back again, to force me back
Is against my will, against my soul
You long to hurt me, to bend me to your way

You surround me, smother me
If only for a moment
I gasp for air, claw for release
To be free of you, O calamity of mine

You may break me in a thousand pieces
I will not succumb to your ways, to your manipulations
I will not, no, I will not

My spirit will not remain caged
I will break forth with new found hope
As I am called into the light
Basked in it's wondrous glory that is all
I will know I am free, I am free

Haunted

Too many memories lurk in the darkness simply waiting
Past pains deeply etched in the crevasses of the mind
Silhouettes of persons and times emerge from the shadows
The psyche's pleas for mercy go unheeded

Consumed with cruel vestiges of time
The haunting presence forever burned into my soul
Memories transfigured into forms of terror
Events in time and persons once trusted

A disturbed mind so tormented
Unwarranted vigils to the past now indelible
My mind's futile escape from itself
Leaves me clinging to shattered moments of refuge

Sweet refuge, hiding me from encroaching shadows of time
Your watchful eye lingers only awhile
In those moments, the hauntings are forgotten
Until the tide turns and the mind is flooded once again with darkness

I am left forever haunted

Transcendence

Universal connections gleam inspiration and knowledge unknown before to the untrained mind 

Enlightenment hidden within the mortal and quiescent forms, frequently chased and rarely discerned

A never ending quest for sentience brings forth harmony to the universe within us

Granting change and freedom to our minds and bodies, forever sought after

This powerful bodhi of the universe awakens our souls, transforming our beings

It is within this new self that the universe's secrets are learned and we are mastered

Release worldly ideas and aims, align yourself with the universe and your body will follow

Transcend the depths of what is known and regain your rightful self

Choice

How am I to make a choice I am against?

How am I to do your bidding when it hurts me so?

Tell me this, how am I to erase the trauma you have burnt into my mind?

Physical pain may not last, but your trauma will never cease.

You have tied me downHow, stripped me of my dignity

Forced me to choose between my life and a life of hell at your feet.

I will not remain in these chains, I will break free however I must

My blood, my death, will be on your hands and may that be burnt into your mind.

Sweet Swallow

How far have you flown sweet swallow?
How far will your journey be?
What marvels have you seen?
Whose pains have you listened to and whose
cares have you lifted to the sky?

Sing me your cares and lighten your load,
For your heart will become heavy if not
Sing me your hopes and dreams,
Offer them to the sky, may they come true!

Fly away sweet swallow, see where your travels
lead you and think of me, sweet swallow.

Never Ending

Closure never comes as the dawn breaks forth

Revealing the lurking shadows of haunting pasts

Spirits of yesterday laugh and mock, taunting

Sending reminders of what was once and forever more

Prayers and pleas lose all power

Menacing hope is empty and cruel

Warmth turns to coldness as the shadows close in

Darkness surrounds and I am no more

Spontaneous

I'm falling, I'm falling fast

The hurt from all the past is catching up to me

How could you? How could I?

Down, spiraling down into a bottomless pit

I'm lost in the darkness, there's no way out

I try to climb only to fall

There's no one there

So I land, covered in the ashes

Broken and whole, left for eternity